Gold Finch Flying

I have as an avatar an American Gold Finch that has just jumped off of the feeder, and is flying away. I took this picture at our trailer in Ontario the first season we were there, in July of 2006.

I think I identify with the picture on many levels. For one, I have many, many pictures of feisty little Gold Finches fiercely defending the feeder as if they were Golden Eagles, not finches. The little birds seem to fear nothing, yet this one has chosen to go away instead of do battle. That is my own personal creed as well; when at all possible, turn away, go elsewhere, I am certainly 'conflict avoidant' in that respect. I just don't see the need in most conflicts.

Like this little guy, I could come back later, when the feeder is less crowded, and eat my fill without getting anyone excited. So for now, fly away. Come back on my own terms.

Secondly, he is leaving, but is obviously confident and competent, his wings and tail strong and poised. He is not weak, nor in disarray. He has made a decision, and is taking a well-planned course of action. I tend to plan, plan, then over-plan before committing, and I like to achieve a level of competence at anything that I will do in the public arena before I attempt it for real. I want to look like this guy when I do something.

Third, he is just plain handsome.

Well, I may not be handsome, but I sure would like to be. I think at one time in my youth I was something of a dude. I still care for my appearance, my clothing, my face, etc. Maybe there are some that think me still a handsome man.

It amazes me that after 51 years, some really horrific experiences in the Navy, a chronic illness that I think I am just about to finally come to grips with, 20 years plus of crutches, canes, physical therapy, and now back operations and a wheel chair, I still have the same tendencies I did as a young man, to plan, to watch, to be careful in execution, and to care for my appearance.

The only thing that has changed is that I have learned to walk away from a fight. You can teach an old crow new tricks after all.